Just As i Am...

7.13.2006

it's electrifying!

so the parental units are out of town and said "chris, feed the dogs"
last night. 10 o'clock. i'm there opening the dog run to get in.
it's an chain link gate and i'm pushing it open to get in.
out of nowhere, Ginger jumps on me. i move and she runs into the gate, which at that point pushes forward and decides to rest on the electric fence. so i'm kicking it trying to get out. afraid to touch it with my hands. does it move? NO. Does it get even more stuck against the electric fence? yes!

i have no phone. i'm stuck in the dog run. the entire thing is surrounded by an electric fence. what's a girl to do??

electrocute herself!

that's right. i grabbed the damn gate and pulled it out. shocked the hell out of me! i jumped back but didn't fall over. it was some scary shizz. and so hard for me to make that decision to shock myself.

speaking of decisions. i had child support court yesterday. saw the jerk in all his awesome glory. Mrs. Attorney says i have two choices: i can send him to jail for owing me over $2000 in back pay, or put him on probation for 10 years and see if he starts paying. if he misses a payment, technically he's in contempt of court. and i can send him to jail then.

what's a girl to do?

i had a damn soft moment and let his ass be on probation. took me five minutes to sign that paper.

i really don't want his money. i haven't needed it in the last 15 months that he has gone without paying it. so why now? i don't really want him around. he's only seen laken three times. i'd like to keep him out of my life as much as possible. that would be nice.

thing is - i don't really think the government has any right to force someone to be a parent. and how do you put a sticker price on what your child is worth? i know it's a stretch. but seriously, i sat in her office weighing my options concerning his lack of "responsibility" and wonder how in the hell the government can say he MUST do this. ?? so i scribbled my john hancock on a peice of paper granting him his friggin' freedom.

... i have three days to change my mind.

15 Comments:

At 6:54 AM , Blogger Just Me said...

i don't see it as forcing him to be a parent, because that's a choice...paying child support is not being a parent...more like forcing him to take responsibility for his actions. it took two people to make that beautiful little boy, and if he doesn't want to be a PART of that, well that's his loss, but he still has a responsibility to the child, you shouldn't have to bear all the burden. anywhoo...just my thoughts

 
At 8:29 AM , Blogger Greta Adams said...

i'm with wendi on that.....he should pay even if it's 1.00 he has that responsibility just like you do. that money could buy laken extra things that he might not be able to have because you are trying to do it all on your own and be in school.
Your doing a great and fabulous job by the way....

xoxoxox
stay out the dog pens would ya?
feed there asses by throwing th efood at them next time...lol

 
At 8:57 AM , Anonymous Anonymous said...

Oh wow, you electrocuted yourself! ( i think I spelled that wrong, oh well!) that is too funny! but scary! you've got balls! hahaha!
As for the Child support...very, VERY tough decision...but if you feel you made the right choice, you did. so true, people should not be forced to be parents...

 
At 8:58 AM , Blogger sarah said...

1. you effing electrocuded yourself?! Oh you poor dear! :(

2. I agree that paying child support doesn't make you a parent...and that really, he should take responsibility for his beautiful son. But like you said, how can you put a price tag on your child? And is Laken better off to NOT have him in his life? It sounds like Laken has a WONDERFUL Grandpa in his life, so he's not missing out on a man in his life . . . personally, I think you've made the right decision. Or at least I think it would be what I would choose if I were in your shoes.

Best wishes, sweetie...I really hope everything works out for you.
xoxox.

 
At 9:56 AM , Blogger Scott said...

Okay, electrocuting yourself, man that sucks. There was not sticks around or anything? That is just not good.

He needs to pay. He does not need to be a parent, he does need to take financial responsibility for something that he half created. Just the way it goes.

Scott

 
At 1:02 PM , Anonymous Anonymous said...

YOu electrocuted yourself!? Good heavens! I'm glad you're ok! I hope that things start going better with Laken's dad and that he atleast starts paying you the money he owes you!

 
At 1:43 PM , Blogger Christielli said...

Oh, your poor dear with the electrocution incident...

I think everyone very wise with the idea that he's not being forced to be a parent, just being forced to take responsibility for his actions.

 
At 1:45 PM , Blogger BRANDY said...

Okay I deal with "dead beat dads" on a daily basis. Child support isn't a charity, it is a responsibility he decided to be with you. You may not need it, but it is for Laken, maybe college fund? He should pay and don't let him change your mind and stay strong! It is in Laken's best interest.

 
At 5:17 PM , Blogger gloria said...

You are a better person than me.

I would have let him R-O-T.

 
At 6:25 PM , Blogger island jen said...

ok, seriously...the things that happen to you, only happen to you!! i can not believe you had to choose to electrify yourself!! yikes!!

just make the decision that you can live with...eff him if he chooses to miss out on that cutie patootie of yours!

 
At 10:26 PM , Blogger X said...

as long as you are comfortable with the decision....then it's the right one. soft moments can sometimes be your gut telling you want to do.

and about the electrocution....be careful girl!

 
At 1:37 AM , Blogger caroline said...

whoa
you electrocuted himself?!
eesh

 
At 1:39 AM , Blogger Michelle W. said...

OMG...

whoa...

 
At 8:16 AM , Blogger Jamie said...

Oh that's hard stuff girl. I'm sorry you're having to deal with that. You poor thing.

And elctrocuting yourself?!?!? OMG, you poor thing! I'm so glad you're ok!!!

 
At 7:55 AM , Anonymous Anonymous said...

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