not so black and white...
i am drifting...
without an anchor
through your ambiguous region
strange continent - immune to all reason
and i'm flattered
by your grey matter
ok. so life is blah.
and if you've known me for two seconds you know i don't like fluff.
so take your marshmallows elsewhere
i'm dieting. because i can't be fat anymore
and because i refuse to buy fat clothes.
i'm purging my system of all this yucky stuff
and i keep coming up gasping for air.
i'm drowning in it!
truth? i am almost depressed again
because once again, i look around and all i see is empty space
and my deal is that i don't like to have someone fill it for me
but is it too much to ask that once, when i spin around with my arms up in the air
up in defeat
waving my white flag
that there be someone in my periphereal that is there to anchor down the spin?
can someone please fuckin' reach out to me and just say,
"i'm here. stop spinning like mad trying to find me...."
please.
posted by Just this Girl @ 12:54 AM
25 Comments:
you'll make it Mary... You will
whatever don't kill you makes you stronger.
Michelle
So.
Looks like life has you by the short hairs at the moment.
I agree with Michelle...(of course)
You are a capapble human...sit down and make it work.
I know you can/will.
Psst....once you figure it out, give me a clue, okay?
(((hugs)))
P.S I know how ot spell capable. I was just seeing if you were paying attention.
Jewel sums up life very well. Of course, that's before she went pop and ruined her music! :)
Been where you are. My advice? Keep flailing your arms. Eventually you'll hit something solid to pull yourself up on.
I wish I had your willpower to diet and just not buy fat clothes...I have been shopping for "them" way to many times this spring!!!
I hope that you feel better soon Chriselda! Just remember that you have a lot going for you. You have been in a play, in school, a Mother, and so much more.
Take some credit!!
Scott
dude.
i love you.
wish i could be there to give you hugs. :(
but again, i love you. :)
dude.
i love you.
wish i could be there to give you hugs. :(
but again, i love you. :)
dude.
i love you.
wish i could be there to give you hugs. :(
but again, i love you. :)
oh man! I so know what this feels like! It's like when people are spinning and they need an anchor, you're there to stop them...but when you need an anchor, there's no one.
For now, spin, spin, get it out of your system. Trying to stop the feelings only just delays them for later. When they're done, grab onto the anchor that's there.
Hugs! You can email me anytime you need to talk! Seriously!
P.S. Old School Jewel ROCKS!!!
Take a time out and breathe. Hang in there. You can always call...I am a great listener.
Hugs.
you just described me
or at least what happens to me
at least twice a year for months
at a time. IT SUCKS!!
I hope things will start looking
brighter and going your way!
I can so relate.
hugs and love, Chriselda.
*mwah!*
Call me!!! YOu know we share this depressed thing in common. hang tough girlie...
I've learned to love the fat girl clothes. I love ice cream too much not to.
Hang in there, girl. It will pass.
Keep your head up! We're helping you fill that space aren't we?
Smile Chriselda!
I get where you are....just try to focus on all the great stuff that you have and the sky will seem a little less cloudy! I send you hugs and hope things brighten up soon! :)
hope you got my email from work :)
big hugs.
Smile lovebug.
K??
Love you.
Hang in there! I feel like I am with ya myself. It sucks right now!
hang in there, girl =)
remember, we're all 'works in progress'...SMILE :)
Beautiful and emotional write, I think you are much stronger than you can imagine
hang in there, dude
you can do it!
Mary, that someone is YOU. :-)
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