ok - i can do this!

I got to be Meredith Grey for a few hours on Wednesday. that was fantastic! i went in for my surgery rotation and got a change to be an observer in a surgery. And guess what i freakin' saw????

ABDOMINALPLASTY!!! (a tummy tuck) As i tell this story, i'm surprised how many people don't know what it is. So let me tell you... a big piece of your love handle gets CUT OFF of your body and tossed on a table next to a pre-med student. It was the most amazing thing ever to see a large piece of human flesh, muscle, and blood, just lying there next to me. So awesome! I am soooooo going to cut people open for a living.

and... i'm sooooo going to hop on a treadmill every chance i get.

Speaking of. My mom called and told me about all these cleansing pills she bought me and a book for me to start my weight loss program. Said "as soon as this play is over, you can start focusing on yourself again." Nice, eh? Well, if you're mom can't tell you you're fat, then who can? But seriously, i already knew i had weight issues. And i won't even say "i don't know why i'm getting fat" because i do. it's the greasy burgers and Schnitz i am eating in the middle of the night. not good. pretty soon, it's going to be my love handle lying on the blue cloth.

but, right now i have to go, because i'm craving some honey nut cheerios.